Beauty on the Backroads

Stories of grace for life's unexpected turns

Archives for October 2009

So much love to give

We’re expecting baby No. 2 in seven weeks or less, and I’m beginning to wonder if I will have enough love to give two children. Do you ever wonder if there’s a limit to your love?

As I “practice” raising two children under 2, I find myself at times unable to love someone else’s daughter as much as I love my own. Maybe that’s not required of me, but I can see a difference sometimes in how I treat them. And I worry that my love for Isabelle will grow less when a new baby enters our world or that I’ll find myself struggling to love them both equally.
How do you do it, parents with multiple children? Do I worry for nothing? Does love increase with the number of children in your house and you find yourself with more to give? Is this just pregnancy hormones and third trimester anxiety kicking in?
“For God so loved the world …” I read in John 3:16; how does He do it? I know He’s God, but the world, is well, big, to say the least, and growing bigger every day. I’m in awe of His infinite capacity to love, even those who don’t want anything to do with Him.
So, I pray to be more loving, to be full of God’s love because on my own, I haven’t enough. And I trust I’ll find a way to love my daughter as much as a new baby and vice versa.
Lord, I don’t have it in me to love the world as You do; all I ask is for enough love to give to those You give to me. Amen.

Salty living

“You are the salt of the earth; but if the salt has become tasteless, how can it be made salty again? It is no longer good for anything, except to be thrown out and trampled under foot by men.” (Matthew 5:13, NASB)

I’m consistently amazed by Jesus’ use of the simplest images to convey deep spiritual truths, and his use of salt imagery is one from which I continue to find more and more meaning. Today, as I read this verse, the word “tasteless” practically jumped off the page. I’ve never thought that salt could be tasteless in the sense of having lost its flavor because I have no memory of ever eating salt with no taste. But I thought of another use of the word “tasteless,” the sense of liking or inclination (think tasteless joke or bad taste in friends).
So, I looked up the Greek word for “tasteless” used in this verse (http://www.biblestudytools.com) and besides meaning “salt that has lost its strength or flavor,” it also can be translated as “foolish.” The root word of the Greek word used here means “foolish, impious and godless.”
Have you ever cringed when another Christian opens his or her mouth and presumes to speak for all Christians? Are you ever sad when you see how TV shows or movies portray Christians? We can criticize those depictions all we want, but if we’re honest, there’s probably an element of truth on which they are based.
I wonder if Christians, the Church, have become tasteless to the world. I’m not saying we’re to say what the world wants to hear, i.e. make the Gospel “taste” good while throwing out the truth. I’m just wondering if we’re fulfilling our mission to make the world crave the Gospel. Salty foods make me thirsty; salty Christians should make others thirsty for the Living Water found in Jesus Christ.
In addition to being tasteless, I wonder if our “salty” lives sometimes leave a bad taste in others’ mouths. I remember one time my husband and I made spoonbread (a cornbread-like dish you can eat with a spoon, hence the name) and when we tasted it, we practically spit it out because it didn’t taste like we had remembered it. Turns out, we used a tablespoon of salt instead of a teaspoon. The salt taste was so overpowering it ruined the dish. Maybe, at times, we can come on too strong and leave people wanting to have nothing to do with Christianity.
Somewhere in between is a balance, and I’m still figuring out how to live a life that leads people to crave Jesus without giving Him a bad name.